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Boy, You Get On My Nerves....


I want you to want to do better. I want you to be scared enough to lose me to where you will get your crap together and be the man that I thought you could be. I want you to go about your day doing something productive expecting to come home to me at the end because I am where you should be, not wandering around doing whatever it is that you please. I want you to understand that if you say that you want me, I am going to take you seriously. But, just as quickly as I'll come to you, I'll walk away with twice as much speed. I never take light to any of the things that you say to me, maybe you do that with my words, but I don't do that to you. I take my heart and my time seriously because if you're gonna just come in my life to act up, there is seriously something wrong with you. I snatched my heart out with my hand and held it out to you and you took it with promises to be careful with it and you play. How many times do I have to say over and over that I do not have time for games? You say you're a man and walk around as if you are one, but when are you REALLY going to grow up? I challenge you to. The only reason, the main reason, why I haven't left you by now is because I see potential in you. You have one more mistake to make and then I am turning my back on you, but until then, it's your best bet to do everything that you have to do because I'm losing time for you. I will no longer sit around and wait on you to respond, to change, to work for me like you made me work for you because I am losing interest in this game that you like to play. I simply just wish that you would..... be a man. I simply wish that you would go above and beyond for me because I'd do it for you in a heartbeat. There are so many times when I sit up and think that you are wasting my time because you know what it is that you have to do to keep a smile permanent on my face, and you don't do those things. My question really is... why? If I have to come through the snow spinning in my car, or come over sick just to comfort you, I'd do those things because they would make you smile... but, what about me? Through you, I learned the importance of boundaries. I can care for you, ride for you, do whatever for you, but there has to be some limitations to it because what you cannot do is use me. There has to be some level of respect here because you cannot just do whatever it is that you want to and, in return, expect me to lie on my back and let you do me.  It just does not work that way. Don't you care at all? Don't you want me to be happy at all? I just cannot wrap my head around why you do not understand. Because... I try hard to give you the opportunity to be in my life and to be my man. Boy, you get on my damn nerves. It's men like you that make women say they are done with men because you stress me out that damn much. I let you pass so many times because I complain so much that, I just couldn't do it that one time. I didn't have the patience to say something about that women's shoe you had in my face. I didn't have the time to complain about not hearing from you that day? I just don't have it in me to try and raise another "man". I'm just sitting back thinking, "What the hell are yall parents doing because that's not my freaking job to sculpt you into the person that you really should be."

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