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Slow Down, Baby Girl..

As young as thirteen, I walked around my parent's house thinking that I could not wait until I could be an adult and get out of their house. I could not wait until I went to college, and when I chose that college, it would be far enough to where my parents couldn't just pop up. I could not wait until I had kids because they would have their cars on their sixteenth birthdays and I would not be as strict as my parents were. I could not wait until I could count my own money and have no one controlling my every move and telling me what to do... Adulthood is overrated. Once I put my two feet on the ground and declared myself an adult, I wanted to do and see everything that being an adult entailed. I wanted to experience paying bills, working long hours, and get a car of all things. After going through on and off periods of financial success, increased bills, and working seven hours of work everyday... I take everything that I said back and I wish to go back to a time where my mom fixed my dinner plates and drove me around everywhere. Adulthood isn't adulthood until you experience $900 in fees to fix a problem on your car, or signing up for car insurance, plus a cellphone bill, and maintaining your personal appearance fees (nails, hair, clothes) along with college expenses. If I could go back and talk to that thirteen year old, rolling her eyes cleaning up the house, I would tell her to "SLOW DOWN, BABY GIRL"... because you have the rest of your life to be an adult and a limited time to be a kid with no major responsibilities, along with people to fall back on if you fall. Once you hit adulthood, those cushions are turned into bricks and the life that you viewed as glitter and bling as a child has become destroyed. I cannot go back in time to be a child, unfortunately, but the little cushion that I do have left, I am holding onto it for dear life because I am sooooo not ready for complete adulthood. It is definitely okay to be scared for it, but being pushed out on my own earlier than expected has prepared me for the real world that I am about to enter in about a year and a half. All I can do now is drag my feet and hope that time goes by slow, because this girl is NOT rushing it, lol.
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