So, when I first left my last relationship, one of the questions that I had a few women Snapchat me about was, "How did you do it?" The situation doesn't deserve much life, but simply put, I left a four and a half year relationship, and since I figured women face this particular issue regularly, I thought it was important to blog about. If I were still in a relationship with this person, I would probably be asking a woman in my position now, how could she walk away from a relationship that she invested that much time and energy in? But, the gag is, I don't regret any of it because the pain I experienced, along with the happiness prior to allowed me to see a clearer picture of what my mate should and should not act like. Yes, it was hard.... but would it not have been harder to continue in a state of being miserable for not just three months, but maybe six months, or maybe a year... it makes no sense to keep yourself in any environment or situation where you are not growing. What people fail to realize is that, what they seen on the outside of the relationship was not truly what it was. I had lost myself well before he realized, and well before I came to terms with due to trying to alter who I was and what I stood for in order to keep someone happy that had wronged me. What I say to the women that messaged me is, if you understand your worth and what it is that you deserve, leaving will be hard, but you'll know that it is necessary to do. You will understand that taking a man back again and again after cheating and different forms of abuse is not acceptable, because there will be that one guy on sidelines the whole time, whether friend or someone who shows interests in you, that shows you how you should be treated. When you have the moment where everything clicks for you, you will be able to put your foot down and walk away because you know that within a relationship, you should not lose yourself, nor allow your partner to drown while you're standing beside the water. You will understand that love is not selfish and petty, nor does love include one person making all the sacrifices and taking all the hits while the other remains untouched and unharmed. Through a relationship, you should both put in the work and you should both have periods of sacrifice where one member is not always taking the "L's". I did what I did because I spent four and a half years living unselfishly, sacrificing everything for someone that questioned to do that in return... When you consider all that your partner may have done and you find yourself crying every night over the same issues, there should be no question about whether or not you need to exit. No one person should cry every day, because it is not healthy, and when I had that "CLICK", I sent my last message and moved on. For the question on WHY did I leave? Just know to never stay in a situation where you find yourself weak and crawling, because that moment there is when you have lost yourself and when none of it is worth the fight anymore.
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