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Dating Myself

Why does being single come with so many bad associations? As if being single is a sin, or that it makes you lonely and incapable of finding someone else... Over the past few months, I have had the opportunity to see a different side of myself and I have also developed my own personal definition of what being single is. It was not until I was alone, that I realized the true value of loving yourself before presenting yourself to someone else, which was one of the most important things that I could have ever learned while being alone. The first month or so that I spent being single, I went through this trial period that I liked to call "Dating Myself". It sounds silly, but through that month of dating myself, I became more clear on what I wanted for myself and within a mate. I spent time taking myself out to eat, shopping, and just rediscovering the things that I loved and finding my own happy place, and for anyone that lost themselves throughout their relationships, I recommend this trial period. Every guy that I have met since this, I have been able to read a lot clearer and figure out a lot quicker whether or not they were meant to have my time and my presence in their lives because I rediscovered what it was that was best for me and what made me happy. Most importantly, I recognized what it was that I deserved. Happiness for me was not being with someone that was still deciding where they wanted to go when I already had my life planned. Happiness was not spending hours on top of hours explaining to a "man" how to make me happy when it was already talked about within the first week or two of getting to know each other. Happiness was not dealing with someone that was uncertain about whether or not they wanted you, the girl in the dorm next door, or the girl from back home. Happiness was not dealing with someone that was willing to be petty versus having a conversation in order to fix our problems. I gained a new type of strength, responsibility and confidence through "dating myself" that I will always be grateful for, because I had lost all three of those things trailing behind someone that destroyed it. When you take the time to actually get to know yourself and truly love yourself, you will find yourself steering away from and not tolerating foolishness from ANYBODY (friends, family, partners, etc.) For every guy that I come across, I make it clear that I am nowhere near ready for a relationship because I am still on this journey where I am getting to know myself and I want to present myself to whatever guy being the best person that I can possibly be. I have found beauty within the word "single" and I like to think that if I have not came across the one meant for me right now, then my journey of "dating myself" is not complete, I still have more experiences to go through and lessons to learn before our paths align.
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